Happy New Year! I know that 2017 will be a tough year but I think I am ready to conquer it. While most people have resolutions like lose weight, save more money, travel more etc…I only have one resolution. I need to and will kick Cancer’s ass this year. It certainly will be challenging but I know that it is one resolution that I must keep and that I will achieve.
Besides the nagging cough that I have had for the past month, I am for the most part back to my energy levels that I had around September before my exhaustion really started to kick in…I think it is kinda funny since the next round of chemo is this coming week and I will be knocked on my butt again. There are some days when my energy level is great and then other days when I really feel like there is something dragging me down, but I feel like I have been able to get back to a semi-normal life over the last week and half.
We had great results very quickly from the first infusion. While none of my neck lymph nodes have popped back up, I am concerned because I can feel nodes in my underarm that grew just a little more. Then again maybe I am just noticing them a little more since I have lost a little bit of weight since the last chemo. I am hoping that after this coming week that any noticeable lymph nodes shrink some more and I have to say that I won’t be too mad if the scale also reflects shrinkage.
I am interested to see what my blood counts are since I know that I have had a bit of a hard time healing. About a week ago I bumped my forehead on a car door (not even that hard) and ended up with a pretty good bruise that spread downwards giving me a black eye. I know that my reds are a little lower than they should be. The other thing that I have noticed is my paleness. I am Irish & Scottish so I am used to pale skin but there are times when I literally look like a ghost I am so pale! At least it is January and it is not too noticeable.
I have mixed feelings about the upcoming chemo session. I want to get it done and over with but I am also a little down because it falls on my actual birthday. Who wants to be sick or sitting getting chemo on their birthday? Don’t get me wrong…I am grateful for the chance to get chemo at such a great hospital and that it will allow me to celebrate many more birthdays, but it is not my idea of a rip roaring time. I am hoping that I am going to feel well enough to have a little piece of birthday cake at some restaurant in Boston and pretend that I am travelling to a chic urban city for my birthday rather than for chemo…
I paired down my chemo bag and my Netflix cue is loaded up on my IPad. The next thing is just to “nuke” the cancer cells again and start moving forward on what is probably the biggest resolution of my life.